Reddit reviews How to Be an Existentialist: or How to Get Real, Get a Grip and Stop Making Excuses

Sounds like you're stuck in negative feedback loops. You feel bad because you feel bad because you feel bad... etc...

I recommend starting slowly, get exercise, eat right, try to take care of your body best you can. Taking care of the body will help boost mood and motivation. Success builds upon success but it's really really hard to get those initial successes. Try to keep your mood up and starting putting in the bitch work.

This book really helped me start to get my shit together:

http://www.amazon.com/How-Be-Existentialist-Making-Excuses/dp/1441188436

I read this great book called "How to be an Existentialist" by Gary Cox and it gives an easy to understand review of what existentialism means both as a philosophy and practically
http://www.amazon.com/How-Be-Existentialist-Making-Excuses/dp/1441188436

edit: too many greats doth not a greater make

I'm in the same boat as you. I think about that a lot, and it has been affecting my life in a lot of ways, unfortunately...

I'm not really in a position to help, but I'll tell you how I've been dealing with it so far. There are two books that I've been reading that I find helpful with this subject: "A Confession", by Leo Tolstoy, and "How to be an Existentialist", by Gary Cox.

I just finished first and am going through the second right now. It was helpful to read Tolstoys educated and well thought-out opinions and experiences on the matter. Hard to say about the second book, but so far it's pretty good.

To my dismay, it seems like most answers point to "deal with it," which I find frustrating.