Reddit reviews Men Trapped in Men's Bodies: Narratives of Autogynephilic Transsexualism (Focus on Sexuality Research)

Actually the whole self-vs-other tf is I think the most interesting category to split up by as I think it very much implies what Blanchard called an "erotic targeting location error": our sexual interests are turned inward eventually building a paraphilic interest to turn our own bodies into what we want to fuck. A strong case for that is made by Lawrence in a book I finished recently who eventually attributes the desire of some MtF transsexuals to change their body to autogynephilia i.e. the desire of oneself as a woman. She also mentions in passing that this example is part of a class of paraphilias and that these interests can arise and eventually compete with other sexual/fetishistic interests - which would fit the bill for explaining some part of self-TFing.... Also you've reminded me that I wanted to make a thread about this....meh >_>

Now get back to the survey >:(

Have you read anything by Anne Lawrence? You may find Men Trapped In Men's Bodies of interest.

What you're describing is very similar to what I've grown up with. Try reading this book, it describes our situation very well with hundreds of examples. It made me feel a lot better knowing other people dealt with the same issues I did.