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I don't think God is angry... He hurts when you hurt because he loves you and doesn't want this for you. That's why Jesus came. And being a Christian doesn't mean you can't struggle with mental illness. There are many examples of depression in the Bible, and Elijah was suicidal. God wasn't angry with him for wanting to die but instead met him with other ways to cope, allowing him to rest and eat because God could see it was all too much for Elijah. I know that's a little different than self harm, but I think it still applies.

If you go to church or youth group, it might be worth pulling your pastor or youth leader aside to talk about worrying that God is angry with you (you don't have to mention the self harm to talk about it, but you could if you wanted). It just sounds like there are deeper issues going on here that are beyond video games- might have been a trigger, but wasn't the cause.

Idk if any of these would be helpful/relevant to you

Mental health in the church

5 ways to get rid of self-hate

Self hatred and how to deal with it

What if I believe the negative voice more than the positive one?

Fear of failure

Trying to be perfect is bad for you

Your self-care in 5 easy steps

Self-care techniques

25 coping skills

Talking to Parents

How to get support without parents being involved

Can I get therapy without my parents support?

Can I report my parents for not getting me help?

Will my therapist tell my parents everything?

Should I talk to my teacher about my issues?

What do I do if my therapist tells my parents everything?

Therapy first appointment

How to start and what to say

What you should expect from therapy

What makes a good therapist

5 signs you're seeing a bad therapist

How to get the most out of therapy

Confidentiality

Depression playlist

Anxiety playlist

Managing mental health in school playlist

Self harm playlist

songs that have helped me:

A Prayer (explicit) A Prayer (clean)

River

Be Kind to Yourself

Be Still My Soul

Do You Know the Way You Move Me?

Dead Come Alive

books:

Hope and Healing for Kids Who Cut by Marv Penner

Life Recovery Bible

Free SH workbook  (the sign up page asks for a lot of info which can be off-putting, but you can make everything up as long as your email works)

Hope something here is useful. Sorry for the wall of text.