Reddit reviews Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

I dealt with this when I was your age. It was really rough.

You don't have a lack of discipline, at least, it's not that simple. You have an eating disorder. Please...please seek help for this. It's going to hold you back until you do. Please, read this book if you're so inclined. It will do a much better job than I ever could of framing this in a bigger picture:

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B000FCJYFK/ref=dp-kindle-redirect?_encoding=UTF8&btkr=1

I love you, and I wish you nothing but the best. And I remember being your age, and dealing with this shit, and the short answer is that I can promise there is an outcome available to you that has this all not mattering to you, very soon. At least, from my perspective it will feel that way. Because the truth is that being your age was some of the worst times of my life, and it doesn't matter to me now.

I am 35, I went through this when I was 15 or so, and I now work in what is your equivalent of the greatest animation job ever. So please seek help for this thing that is bogging you down, and at some point you'll look back on these years and be proud of yourself for getting through it.

It's hard for me to say, as I'm an unusually internally directed person, aka stubborn. For me, change always comes after an ugly realization I can't deny or ignore. Marya Hornbacher's book "Wasted" was definitely eye opening for me- I saw all my symptoms in her experience. It's a wonderful book, I personally think it should be taught in schools. https://www.amazon.com/Wasted-Anorexia-Bulimia-Marya-Hornbacher-ebook/dp/B000FCJYFK/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1538339555&sr=8-1&keywords=marya+hornbacher

Another thing that shifted my opinion on what was going on was learning about starvation experiments- the subjects, all totally normal men, developed those same anorexic symptoms. Through those stories I began to realize I might really be sick, and taking it seriously definitely helped me to turn it around.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Minnesota_Starvation_Experiment#Results

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Minnesota_Starvation_Experiment#Related_work

I do have a funny memory of the time when I didn't want to eat around other people. I was married then, and once my ex realized what I was doing he 'put his foot down' for the only time in our marriage. He insisted on us eating at the same time, and if he saw me eating he'd come and sit by me and refuse to leave. I knew he was right, and in his own hostile, controlling way he did help.

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