Reddit reviews The Pursuing God: A Reckless, Irrational, Obsessed Love That's Dying to Bring Us Home

I always recommend books. Scroll down for four book recommendations.

Can you make time to meet with your pastor?
Could you email, or phone-video-chat?

One of my favorite prayers is from Mark 9:24 when a parent frantically brings his son to Jesus for healing and cries out, "Lord, I believe. Help me in my unbelief!"
You are not alone in having a crisis of faith. But go through, don't stop. Do participate in the life of the church -- not just the worship service but study and service as well. Do repeat that Mark 9:24 prayer -- put it on a mental loop.

I'm also happy to keep on talking.
Now the books:

Lately I've been recommending Joshua Ryan Butler's The Pursuing God, as he re-frames the story of God interacting with people.

I also appreciate how William Young deals with belief in The Shack.

Perhaps my strongest recommendation for you at this time: Girl Meets God: On the Path to a Spiritual Life

One other recommendation, a memoir from a British satirist named Tony Hendra, Father Joe: The Man Who Saved My Soul.